Hi everyone. It looks like a very active community you have here. I hate being the new guy because it makes me want to crawl away and hide! I was diagnosed 22 years ago after a suicide attempt. I continued with self destructive behavior for several years after, but finally met someone and settled down. After 20 years of marriage I am once again dealing with the demons from the past. After years of copeing and suffering in silence, the death of my father has me reeling. My mother committed suicide when I was 9 and my father basically abandoned me afterwards. So there are a few things I need to deal with, especially after finding and reading my mother's suicide note. I just recently started seeing a therapist and finally told my wife last night that I have BPD and what the characteristics are. This came after a massive fight where she told me she "walks on eggshells around me". So I'm in for a lot of changes in the next year or so as I try to really deal with my issues instead of hiding behind masks.

Thanks!