I'm glad you are going to be checked out by a neurologist. There are medications that can help migraines. Hopefully, once diagnosed you can get a prescription for something that will help. Sounds like you are in a lot of pain and that you are not getting much sleep. You may not be a alone as you think, you are just pushing people away with your anger, which could come from not getting enough sleep. I hope the doctor can figure out what is wrong with and get you some relief.