aww hun I know how you feel, but trust me, if you tell your parents, im sure theyd feel better knowing you had an actual issue, than to just think that you're lazy and dont want to do anything with your life. Trust me, sitting in your basement sulking in your pain isnt going to change anything. You need to take small steps, I think you should talk to your parents, see a primary care physician and get prescription for something like zoloft, it seems like you have anxiety and zoloft works wonders for anxiety and depression, it might take a month or 2 but once it starts working its incredible to actually feel alive again. if telling your parents isnt an option at all, then yes you need to get a small job maybe at walgreens like you said or even wal mart....and with generic i know zoloft isnt too expensive and maybe you should be prescribed klonopin or something while waiting for the zoloft to kick in, to help too. Please I did what you did for 2 years so depressed ddint know how to get out of it, then one day well i live in massachusetts where any1 can get on insurance and get help without a job, so my friend convinced me to get insurance helped me fill out a form, i had insurance in less than a week and was able to get prescription for anti depressant....but in your case you can pay a primary care doctor maybe $100 for a visit and get a couple prescription sfor less than $50.....which isnt a lot if your parents would help you, no1 wants to see their child like that, im sure theyll help. and if its not an opition then get a job..
I think maybe you should make small goals, such as to drink a lot of water, maybe go for a walk everyday, eat less, lose some weight you'll start feeling better and more motiviated....stretch marks is nothing, if someone likes you they could careless about stretch marks, i have them all over my stomach and hips from whwen i used to be fat and im a girl, so how do u think i feel when i wear a bikini? its somewhat embarassing, but i dont let it bother me.....honeslty hhun please just get help, i can promise you sittin there isnt going to do a damn thing, you need to at least get on a med and help get motivated and fix your life...before for 45 regretting not getting help....please wish i was there so i could help you, im sorry you're so sad..please try and take some of my advice, i used to be u