hi

glad i decided to check out the forum. thank you thank you thank you thank you................................................................
i'm not going to get all mushy, not into that s---. i am so glad you posted. plese keep posting!

i try to read and post regularly, but being dyslexcic makes i tough. it takes several hours to read and post stuff. i've been jounaling for a while too. never thought i'd ever do that, but it helps a lot, so i do. one time i gave it to the t and left. said i didn't feel like talking out loud, and that it was the only way he was going to get the truth out of me.

i too have post it's and notebooks all over the place. i don't know which book to take to therapy,( if i can find one.) it really creeps me out to read my posts. the only way i can tell it is mine is by the name it's posted under. same thing with the journals. lots of different handwriting. that creeps me out too. now, the t wants me to "map out" my alters. i'm trying, kinda.

i live out in the boonedocks too. if your dog sticks his nose up a skunk, forget the tomato juice. it don't work. you just end up with a pink stinky dog. bathe with dawn soap, and douse him with frebreeze every hour. you no it's bad when your dog can't stand the way he smels.

know what you mean about the dx. part of me couldent believe it and kept trying to prove them wrong, only to get opposite results. part of me was so realived. i finaly had an answer to all the weird s--- that was happening. i just thought i was a complete failure at life. love hate relationships, not wanting kids. i couldn't take care of myself, and didn't wan't to be selfish bringing a life into this god forsaken place. ( unlike some people we knew )never been able to keep a job. thought it would be easier when i sobered up, but it's only worse.

it's a good thing i have talent. i'm an artist. a pretty good one. now i know why my style kept changing so drasticly.
anyway, geuss i've told you enough about myself. i hope you keep posting. your posts are like a beacon in my world of dark confusion. thanks.

benny