I know how you feel, my father constantly accuses me of using depression as an excuse, he doesnt understand at all. i literally hate myself. just tell them its not really their business....look at all the suicides, ppl do get depressed, its a chemical inbalance and you have no control over it, just cry and tell them, you're trying to do your best to get the help you need.....thats all you can do, just try and do the right thing