Welcome to PC (PsychCentral), and specifically to the BPD forum. I know just what you are talking about. I was Dx'd in the late 90's and went through pretty intensive therapy for over a year. Did really well for a long time, but within a two month time period last year, I lost both my father and my job. I have come here for support too, and have found so many caring, kind, and thoughtful people. Thank you for your post and, once again, welcome to PC.