T told me she wants to go down to only seeing me once a week... I know that should be good, because that means I'm doing alright, but, being me, I totally shut down... How could she not want to see me? This was the same appointment where she kept saying "well, you're just using these tools wrong" and right after she answered "no, I do not hug" and telling me that she can't email me because its not secure until I fill out this form that she has to send me first, but still hasn't... I've already been having a terrible week, including having my first panic attack on Tuesday, and that triggered another one (I just switched meds, I'm going back Monday to get them straightened out... I never used to get panic attacks)... I just hate seeing myself going back to this never ending downward spiral that I should be able to handle....