Oh man, that sounds like it was a rough appointment. Like the adage, when it rains, it pours. Now, though, you need to take a deep breath. Change is hard for anyone, but especially hard when you are facing so many trigger points. The change in meds, the change in frequency of appts, the change in having panic attacks, these things are temporary. The fact that you've met people in here that care about you, and that try to help in any way is not temporary. I hope that this week gets easier until you meet to get your meds straightened out. I hope that you find comfort in knowing that we are here for ya, and willing to listen.