I'm actually more open than I thought I'd be to meds, but this is a really tough decision. It probably shouldn't be but it is. It's been 90%+ of my thoughts these past two days and I still can't come to a conclusion. Maybe the consult I have tomorrow will clear things up. I don't mean to be so melodramatic, I just wish someone could definitively tell me which option is right for me so I can tell the part of me that didn't win to just shut up.