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Sorry for being so late to see this thread. I got behind on reading this board again, but I just want you to know how great I think you are and that you deserve to be happy and not to be alone. Everyone else's replies were great, so I don't have much to add. Just recognizing your patterns and how you might be setting yourself up to feel bad is a huge step forward because then next time you will be that much closer to being able to stop yourself and notice the pattern before it gets very far. It's so easy to push people away, or even just convince yourself that they are tired of you and don't want you around. I know because I do it too, and then I panic and think that I have goofed up and lost the friends I had. You are definitely not alone in this, and I hope you will consider me to be a friend even if I can't be there in 3-D for you.

Wendy

<font color=orange>"Success is the ability to go from failure to failure without losing your enthusiasm. - Winston Churchill "</font color=orange>