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i know what you mean ... i dont have my T until then either

.... but just know that you are not going to loose who you are. Do you do any type of journaling? Because that can be very helpful just getting your thoughts out there. Or just imagine yourself sitting down with your T. Try picturing what she might say to you. When you feel really lost just try and put yourself in her position. What would you say to yourself? Sometimes looking withing yourself to find comfort and support is the hardest thing, but you can do it.
Wishing you well
Jacq