Uh, how in the world do you confess and then plead not guilty? Not that strangling a person makes sense either. I'm so , so sorry. I know what it's like to someone and have that be the ONLY person in the universe that could make things better and have them gone. Just please do me a favor and do everything and anything nice to and for yourself that your friend would want you to do. Keep talking to us here if it helps. I hope you have a trusted therapist and i personally think meds help. May angels
surround you, sweetheart.