Yes, and I've told her many times, because what I can talk about, or the free manner in which I can talk, in fantasy is not the way it feels in therapy. Also, telling her about it has led to being able to bring up things I might not have otherwise.

And when I tell her and she validates my feelings of wanting to be with someone who can be helpful right then, or my feelings of not wanting to be alone with the things I struggle with, or just the desire to have someone to share everyday things with, that validation helps me to understand myself better, to have a clearer understanding of my desires. And when I understand what I want, it is easier to see ways to get that, or to even see ways that I do have it already, even if I want more.