In my experience, it takes time to accept the fact that the event/s was SA. Once we accept that aspect, we can move along significantly. Often, we lose what we once considered to be caring relationships. We find out who truly cares for us, and who doesn't when we come forward.

It is a difficult, but necessary, step that we all need to take. Going in for counseling also helps a lot, though I'd definitely advise you to seek a T that specializes in SA. Keep talking here, on PC, for further support as well.

Gentle hugs sent your way.