My problem is that I suppressed all anger for many years. I just started to feel it in the last couple of years and at first i was overwhelmed by it and scared to let it out. I have all this negative emotion stored up and I am fairly clueless as to how to release it in healthy ways. After my last therapy session i felt indignant that this person had done that to me when i was a tiny girl. I felt angry but I couldn't endure the emotion for long -- feeling anger at my abusers triggers panicky feelings for me. I am tolerating the feelings a little better each time, but I would rather bury them than deal with them. But I also know I have to find a way to release the old angers or else I will back to carving on myself. Finding safe appropiate ways to release that anger is my current goal.

~dalila