Re meds: the pharmacy called. Probably a problem with the meds. I didnt sleep. Well. I deserve punishment. I'm just not good enough. I deleted my Ts phone number so I would never be tempted to text. I've disappointed him. Just like I've disappointed everyone. I don't want to ask for help anymore from anyone. I loved him. We had done so much work together and now it's ending like this.

Thank you all for your support and responses. It means a lot.