So, the therapist sent a message back. Said she'd been extremely busy last few days, but she'd get reading my email this afternoon. This is fine but am I being unreasonable thinking if she keeps saying 'I'm here' and 'call me whenever you want' then it gets a bit academic if they aren't actually really there. Like if she said we could definitely talk about things yesterday, and then doesn't even check the stuff I sent her until today...then it jars with me some. I guess maybe I've misunderstood her.

It is ratting me off a little, but I'm fairly sure I am being unreasonable, so I just messaged back and said fine, but I'm concerned about how not hearing from her yesterday affected me - that that feels like a backward step. So I dunno. Maybe she's not in fact the right person for me to deal with my stuff with. Or maybe that's just me sabotaging my therapy, freaking out as I admit to myself that I'm attaching to her? I just don't know!

Thank you guys for holding my hand this morning