I sent another email asking her to send them this morning, still nothing...

My problem is that while I love my therapist, and do trust her for the most part, I am so scared to talk to her about my feelings regarding her... She makes me do thought records to keep track of what I am thinking/feeling in the moment, and I always do one mid-appointment, but she has never seen any of those because I don't want her to take it wrong and hate me for it....

It doesn't help anything that I've been having awful nightmares, and I'm doing things that are so normal for me, but instead of reacting like "normal" people, everybody else reacts like me... It's not fun...

I know I'll get through it, it's just hard as hell believing it at times... Thank you guys for being here for me