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Hi again henrydavidthebot, yeah it's moi again ~ looser of the year/century whatever, who cares anyway. I feel all you feel but yeah, maybe for different reasons. I feel everything except I don't have any real physical pain yet. However the pain of depression feels ~ lotta folk don't know that ~ it feels painful like a kinda grief. Guess it's a grief for life you can't live, for me 'cos I'm totally mad, mental, insane and no hope in sight. Was born with this sick disorder and will die with it ~ or because of it ~ or it will force me to make myself die. I'm all dead inside anyway, I just appear from the outside to be alive ~ fat ugly old & alive. At least you know hunny, that you have a good intelligent brain, to get your degree, I have no brain, no bits of paper to show how intelligent I am, far far from it. Wish I could just take a pill and sleep ~ apparently I'm a useless addict who can't be trusted with pills ~ still, they can't take the alchohol away, for it's not illegal is it? You are NOT alone sadly, you are NOT. HUGS.
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