I don't think it is strange to have second thoughts and to be scared. Having baby is a big responsibility. I don't think you should feel guilty. And don't try to picture your life years in the future because you can't predict the future. Seeing your baby for the first time will likely change all you doubts to thoughts of wonder at such a wonderful gift. Stay on top of it though. Make sure you tell your doctor all your thoughts. Your body is raging with hormones right now, and that can cause anxiety and depression. And come to PC anytime you wish to get things off your chest.