... to regulate it; to help, or to be helped.

When it's on, it's on.

Most of the time I pray for an accidental deep cut, so that I don't actually commit suicide but still die.

It is beyond my understanding why the slightest anomaly in my life becomes a major trigger.

I tend to think I am marked for death.

It is silly of me to try to break away, to try to think that I might have a future.

My hopes are ridiculous and they shame me.