Thank you both for the advice!

Yea, I've been pretty stable the past year, but I already feel the SAD creeping up on me. I think I'll have to invest in a dawn simulator. I'm already trying to come up with a schedule to keep me occupied and to gain as much daylight as possible. It's usually the nighttime that it hits the most. Trying not to focus on the past is hard, but I will keep trying to push it back. I always try to look forward, just something about the time of year.

Let's hope we can make it through this season without any hiccups. Thanks again for the responses. It's crazy how it affects us with BPD so much. I wish there was a permanent way to kick the winter blues!