...trying to have self respect?...
I must be kidding

I can meet someone at sunrise... fall in love with them way before lunch,
and suddenly hate them in the early afternoon.

so a day of attempted intimacy turns into a disaster

...extend this into days weeks and years...

it's like a million personal failures...

irretrievable intimate possibilities

I want the love but I cannot handle the pressure...

I cannot win

just today I completely mis-understand this borderline

apart from the urge to isolate