I need to take a break from people.

I don't trust myself

I thought I was ok and then I hurt someone I care about.

mania is no excuse according to me
despite how bitterly it troubles my brain

it's the least compared with affecting a loved one...

and that's just the thing...

I have to go back to the start like an emotional infant and learn how to care all over again...

but in the meantime I am too afraid to make contact ...
something has broken inside me and I don't understand it yet...
I must apply myself to identify the problem...

even I struggle with this...it's very personal and quite painful

but until I can assimilate the issue I must hide
I don't want to hurt anyone else