Oh my god, you explained it perfectly to a T. It is not my part in the play. I am meant to be the strong one, the optimist, the rock for everyone else. It's like they can't accept that they will need to take a new role themselves so it comes down to me not really being "that bad off" just "eh that kind of sucks".

I am so sorry you have to deal with it to. The illnesses themselves are hard enough as is. When your support system is dwindling, it's even harder.