I know it seems like I'm one of the more self-proud people regarding my ability to freely speak my mind about fetishes and sex, but in reality I'm very self-conscious.

I've been wanting to do a lingerie photo shoot for about three years, but now since the hospitalization I've gained 50 pounds and I do not look as good as I did my senior year of high school. My stomach sticks out, I have a really ugly muffin top, my cheeks are fuller and I have neck fat and my thighs are big. I don't think I have the body for a lingerie shoot anymore. I think my best bet would be to get a black corset, but the point of a lingerie photo shoot is that I would feel good with how I look, but now I think I look fat and ugly. I do not know what to do. I wish I was thin again.