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Originally Posted by Nobodyandnothing
Oh honey, I wish I could help you. You are in a very bad situation. Does your father know about your abuse? Why would he allow your older brother anywhere near you? You need help so you are not alone. Do you have access to anyone you can talk to? Old teacher, clergy, anyone? How old are you? Who homeschools you, your dad?
I am sorry for all the questions but having some additional information may assist in developing some suggestions.
In the meantime, I am thinking about you and praying for you.
ps...please consider changing your user name. It certainly does not describe you.
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my dad knows but he just doesnt believe me i guess. he avoids it and he tries to rationalize it and break it down into seeming not that bad which is a pisser but it was so long ago that theres nothing i could do . and my brother even has a girlfriend now and tries to be really nice and make up for it, but at the same time pretends it never happened so its just all really frustratingly confusing. point is, its not like hes going to rape me again. it was years ago and ended. im not necessarily homeschooled, i attend a learning center twice a week at the mall. im 16. and i used to go to therapy but its over now, nothing anyone tells me is going to change anything and im not religious anymore so i just have to learn to deal with it best i can alone. my oldest brother has no where to go and regardless of what he did, my dad is still his dad so its not like i can stop their relationship over something he did while he was a teenager no matter how bad its ruined my life. especially since ive put on such a great fake smile for so long, literally no one takes it seriously. he thinks i was somehow involved in it willingly which is sickeningly disgusting and a lie, but itd hurt my dad too much to correct and without my mom, itd be too awkward to explain in detail how forceful and against my will it was. im seriously alone in this.