Hello again,
I see from your reply that you are on your way to figure things out and make things happen.
One book I would recommend before you can afford to go into therapy is Feeling Good by David Burns, cognitive psychologist. It is a self-help written by a true professional, well researched. There are exercises, too, if my memorery serves me well.
One thing that striktes me when I read your posts is that you are critical of your parents. However, they too, are only human and have done as THEY thought best; they didn't know any different and neither you or they can change the past. You can, on the other hand, take a firm hold of the future.
Going home to mull things over has served you well, you are getting some perspective, just don't get stuck. I wish you all the best in your pursuit of a good life.