Thank you for the support. It feels like I do, maybe I talk too much, possibly from the ADHD, I used to be known as motor mouth when I was younger. It really takes effort for me not to "talk" too much. I have been sleeping poorly lately because the weather changes more than my mood this past week. My T helped me have a decent birthday this last one, she suggested I focus on the positive aspects of it, so rather than dwelling on what its not, appreciate what it is. I think my hatred of my birthday also stems back to deep seating feelings I have about myself, wishing I'd never been born for the majority of my life. Telling my mother repeatedly she should've just had an abortion, so I don't have to endure all this suffering.