I am so relieved I have found this site! I could have written your post. Isn't it a weird thing. Feelings are feelings I guess but it's so hard to rationalise. I don't think I'm making sense - just wanted to thank you for raising this & to let you know you are not alone. I hope I find the strength to talk to T about these feelings. Just seems like these feelings are taking over from the original reason for me seeing her!