Thanks for the hugs. I should get out of the house and do a couple of things. I wrote out the story in fictionalized form, usually writing helps get stuff out of my head. Usually the anniversary doesn't hit me so hard but this year it just is. Hormones maybe? Who knows. Thank you though!

Oh and I didn't sleep worth crap either but that was my fault, I wanted to wallow in the 'feelings' so didn't take sleep med. I'm an idiot.