You should feel however you do feel. There is nothing wrong with being confused. Life is confusing, especially at 14 years old. That is such a confusing point in your life. You are just starting to figure out who you are, what you like, and what you stand for. I changed so much as a person between the ages of 14 and my high school graduation you wouldn't believe. Being confused at 14 is so normal it would almost be weird if you weren't.

Maybe you're straight, maybe you're not. I know it probably feels like you have to figure all of this out right now, but the reality of the situation is that you have the rest of your entire life to figure out what you like and you don't have to try and fit it neatly into a category. Certainly don't worry about it because even if you are a lesbian, there is nothing wrong with it.

If you want to figure out who she is, go for it. Give it a try and experiment if you'd like, but BE UPFRONT with her about it from the beginning. Tell her you are questioning and you aren't sure what you are into. Don't led her on. If you don't want to give it a try, you aren't obligated to. You are NEVER obligated to do anything you don't want to do.

But I wouldn't read much into the whole wanting to marry your best friend when you were in elementary school thing. When I was in elementary school, I wanted to be a dog. Just try to relax and take things slow. There is no deadline to figuring this stuff out.