That must be really difficult for you to handle. It seems like you may Just have to go unwillingly, but a lot of people gave some advice and you should try it. If you have to go then try and make the best of it. Hang out with the little kids, try and teach them stuff, do a little crafts project with them. Children won't judge you and they can lift your spirits. If anyone gives you crap tell them you're interested in working with kids, it's an admirable job!