I am a 26 yr old female. I was born in 1980 with multiple physical disabilities.

In 1988 I started Self-Injuring and August 2005 is when I started making a serious effort to stop Self-Injuring (My one year anniversary for no Self-Injury will be January 9th, 2007). Aug. 2005 is when my Eating Disorder started.

From August to October I dropped over 40 pounds. My parents did not believe me when I told them I thought I might have an eating disorder so I started looking for therapists on my own. I finally found one spring of 2006. August of 2006, my therapist and I started talking about more intense programs as I was still loosing weight.

Finally in November I knew I needed help quickly. From November 22nd to December 19th I attended an inpatient eating disorder program and stabilized. I was admitted with Anorexia NOS, Depression/Anxiety, PTSD, Rape/Molestation and Self-Injury. I was discharged on the 19th because of insurance reasons. My doctors fought to keep me however at $1800/day I was not able to afford to stay on my own (w/o insurance).

I have started looking for IOP’s (Intensive Outpatient Programs) and Transitional Homes that take insurance. So far it looks like my insurance will pay only for inpatient programs.

I have been out of inpatient a little over a week and am starting to relapse with my Restricting. Is this normal? There are no EDA meetings in my area. I know if I do not get help with the Restricting soon I may switch over to the Anorexia again. Should I try to go back to Inpatient, try an IOP or try the free programs like EDA groups online? I am open to any and all suggestions as I am at a loss and feel like my control over ED is slowly slipping out of my control.

Thanks!

ArH