Hi, neutrino. Seeking reassurance is a bad thing, because it only ends-up strengthening the distorted beliefs, worries, fears, etc. It would serve you better to work on your anxiety, and to better distract yourself. Think of it like me telling you there's cake on the table - your favorite cake - and that you can't go near it, but that's it's there. Now imagine you keep asking me over and over if you can have the cake, checking to see if I changed my mind; in this case, all you're doing is constantly making that cake more prominent in your mind, making you want that cake even more. You'd be far better off to just forget the cake, and be done with it. I'm not saying you want whatever bad things that are going on in your mind, but rather I'm just showing you that the more you focus on something, the more prominent it becomes.

I have pretty nasty OCD, as well, and I totally know what you're going through, ... well, within reason.

You're welcome to PM me, if it helps, and you'll be no burden to me, so don't worry about that. If I don't feel like talking, or typing out a long message, I simply won't and will perhaps leave it for later; that's the beauty of the beast.