I cant do this any more I went to the doctor's on the 13th Dec & he gave me depression tablets & told me he would send me to see a pshycologist about my ED I have been doing really well with eating over the last couple of weeks even though I still haven't gained any weight I have been eating loads compared to what I was eating & not feeling to bad about eating but on boxing day night I hit rock bottom again & its getting bad again I just not want to eat any more I feel sooooooooo fat & I hate myself so much again I cant talk to my husband about how I am feeling as he cant understand why I feel the way I do the only person that I have to talk about it is a friend from school but I will not see her till the kids go back to school next week I know that I cant wait that long as I will slip back in to not eating again & I know that I cant do that.