hey.

are you volountarily going to see the t? because if you are then that should count for something. i would make sure that when you see the person you emphasise that you haven't acted on your thoughts for a long time and that you want some help with things so that you don't have so many of those thoughts anymore.

i guess... it often takes me a while to trust someone. therapists especially. because you are supposed to tell them all this stuff... but therapists are people too and some therapists are fine for dealing with some issues but not so fine dealing with others. i guess i would take it slowly and see how they respond to you. if they are okay with your having those kinds of thoughts then work with that for a while. in time you could disclose more about just how bad your temper has been.

that might not be the most honest strategy, but i think you need to take care of you. unfortunately... involountary committment is something that happens sometimes :-( i'd take it slow and see how it goes. if you are going volountarily and they don't respond so well to your having those kinds of thoughts (if they seem a bit scared or something) then it might be better to find somebody else to talk to about them. i wish i could say that it will be okay but therapists are people too...

i hope it goes well for you.