In my last session (3 weeks after being back after my T's last long summer vacation) - my T said to me that she was thinking of going on holiday again, abroad, in the next week but she wasn't completely sure.

At the end of our session, she said she would let me know over the weekend if she was OR wasn't going on holiday.

Well, I stayed in over the weekend and she didn't call. Part of me thought I should call, but as she works from home, calling at the weekend seemed unfair as it was her days off.

Monday came and there was still no call or communication. At this point my usual session was only a few days away and I was not sleeping properly and really worrying. One of my friends also sees her, so I called this friend who confirmed our T had told her she was going away and that she had had her session rearranged so she still had a session that week before T left. She couldn't be sure which exact day she was going away though.

On Tuesday, I bit the bullet and decided to contact my T via email. She wrote back a short email confirming she was away that week and she would see me the next week.

My usual session was less than a day after I got this email from her. I was so close to turning up as usual and feeling so stupid. I just felt so forgotten.

I know T's are only human, however, I'm sure if I had been seeing a client for 3+ years on the same day (this series of therapy) I would remember that when I was due to fly out on the same day that something would niggle on my mind that I needed to tell my client I would be away. It felt short notice. I feel like she is punishing me for wanting to leave.