{{{{{{{{{frewill}}}}}}}}}}} I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way.
If I might say something. It think you can use the "alone time" to make yourself feel better. What I mean is that sometimes we put so much energy into others lives that we tend to forget how important our own life is.
You need to nurture yourself first and maybe find activities that will open room for you to meet new people.
I'm not a group person at all, I like to be just by myself.
But, somedays we need that "one friend" that we can call and have a nice chat with.
You'll find the right people, but maybe, first you need to find yourself and feel confortable within.
PM me anytime, I'm here for you hon~