Just out of curiosity, what is your objection to taking an AP? I know nobody wants to be on one but sometimes it's necessary for awhile, if nothing else than to get through a crisis and then taper off.

FWIW, I just about threw a fit when I was put on my first one. As a nurse I've given Zyprexa and other APs many times, always to people who had severe mental illnesses; knowing my pdoc was bringing out what I considered the "big guns" was scary. But it worked so well that I stayed on it for a few months, then went off when I was stable again.

Unfortunately it didn't last, and by early February I had to go on another one, which I still take and will for the foreseeable future. I don't know how I feel about that. But I really, really love being in full remission, and if a full-time AP is what it takes to stay there, I guess I'm stuck with it. There's worse fates.