and does anyone else ever feel like they will be alone - forever?

The closest I've ever been to anyone in my life was in therapy - and every time I get that close - I can feel BOTH loved and supported the way I need want and desire - BUT - at the same time - I can feel the exact opposite in the same level of intensity - because ultimately, it is a therapeutic relationship - NOT a real outside and in the real world relationship...

It's almost as though - the only place safe enough for me to be 100% myself, is in the company of a professional who knows how to handle people like me - but in that comes - the realization that I will NEVER get what I need in a relationship outside from therapy...

SCARY as hell to me.

Anyone else relate?