Hey, whether you've changed inside or not is Jesus's problem, not your counselor's to judge and I think he knows that? You should too and remind yourself to quit "trying" so much; you can't earn your way to salvation, you have to just do the best you can, moment to moment, ask for forgiveness when you realize you've made a mistake, and move on to the next "challenge?" Change doesn't happen overnight. I'm reminded of the argument for losing weight? I'm 100+ pounds overweight but I've been gaining for 30 years. Why should I expect it to work well to take it off in 1 or 2 years? Why not just lose 3-5 pounds a year like I put it on, for 30 years? Makes lots of sense but have you ever heard any diet people express it that way? We're in such a hurry these days for everything only most things don't work that way and I think that's why we have so many troubles.