I've never been hospitalized and won't unless forced or T tells me I have to. T "nipped it in the bud" by asking me to take the PRN before things got really bad. This (above posts) aren't really that bad it normally gets a lot worse.

or at least we would be if people would just shut up and leave us alone Yes that one.
I do not plan to stop my MS or AD (AP qualities), but don't know when I should stop taking the PRN. I am still taking my medication including the PRN. I do plan to continue with my current meds. forever and ever. I hate the PRN and so does my husband because I'm sleeping way to much on it and I "look drugged". Yes he completely knows what's going on, every last demented thought usually as I think it, and no it doesn't scare him. He even laughed at me today when I said "Okay, I guess I'll admit I'm hypo-manic" which actually saying it is a new thing. Usually I feel others are over reacting until it scares me but when it scares me I can't bring myself to ask for help so I 'ride it out'.

fantasies about violence I haven't had thoughts of me causing violence in a couple of days, maybe a week? I am still having random rages, paranoid thoughts and only sleep when I take the AP. And.... and I realized that I was looking at my twisted little thoughts as art and I took the AP on my own! I know that doesn't sound like a big deal but it's a huge deal. Then a couple of days later I was having real trouble understanding English and T told me "You need to slow down, You need to sleep and you need to take your Anti-psychotic" She repeated it a lot so that's really the only thing I remember. She never told me when I could stop though.

"if I ever want to stop meds and therapy, slap me" I still completely in agreement with this statement. I know I'll be on medication forever, but I do want out of the mental health system at some point. I've seen the mess it causes in family's when violence and paranoia strike because of non-compliance.