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I have been seeing a new p-doc for about six weeks now. Two sessions ago he told me to purchase a book that we would use in therapy. He even went so far as to say, "we can cover about a chapter a week and discuss it in here. We'll use it like a workbook."
He immediate went online and found a used copy of the book for $25. This price did not include shipping.
I have never had a therapist tell me to buy a book before, but I wanted to prove that I am serious about making progress in therapy. I ordered the book.
It normally costs $40, but I found it used on Amazon for $30, including shipping. Partly because I have health issues, but mostly because I have chronic major depression, I have not had a job in over ten years. The very small amount of money I have, comes
from the generosity of my family. Every expenditure I have must be a need, not frivolous. So paying for this book was not an easy choice to make.
When I returned for my last session, I told the doctor that I had purchased the book. His reply: "oh, good for you. You are an intelligent person and will find some interesting material in there, studying on your own." I was so shocked. I felt like I had been slapped in the face. It felt like I had the rug pulled out from under me.
This doctor is very clever at redirecting me, often at a very rapid rate, so that I feel confused by all the different things that get mentioned. Afterwards, I am not sure what I have accomplished.
I don't think I can trust this doctor now. I'll give him a chance to explain himself in our next session, but I am angry and disappointed in his dismissive attitude regarding his big idea to work with a book I really can't afford.
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