NoEmotion,

I feel for you. I've been where you are now more times than I can count, and I hate to tell you this, it will only get worse.

The fact that you even want a drink in the morning is a sign to me that you have a problem. Normal drinkers don't want that. Or as we say in my AA group, "Scotch is not a breakfast drink".

Do you want to stop? It's hard, but it is possible. And my life's far from perfect now, but it's a lot better than it was before I got sober.

Since you're close to being a daily drinker, if you do decide to stop, I'd suggest talking to your family Dr. about getting help in stopping. It's possible that you're physically dependent on alcohol, in which case stopping cold can be dangerous as well as unpleasant. I've had withdrawal seizures in the past and trust me you don't want to go there.

So talk to your Dr., be absolutely honest about how much you've been drinking, and ask for help detoxing. They may recommend that you go to a detox, or they may decide you can detox at home safely with the help of medication. The meds will also make the process less painful.

I'd also suggest trying AA. I go to AA and found them really helpful both in stopping and staying stopped.

Good luck.

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