loads of hug to you. Been in that place some weeks ago, and I felt that there's no end to it. Hope that some relief would come to you soon.
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"The is no better exercise for the human heart than reaching and lifting others up." - John Holmes
herethennow: This ward is a prison!
Wardmate: No.. here's not a prison. *points to brain* Here is.
dx: recurrent MDD.