I get it mamerala. I always think the same sorts of thoughts. Last year it took me from September until June before I finally got up the nerves to spend any time with some of my friends from work. I was able to go "we should do something sometime"... but I kept thinking that I was inconveniencing them, or that they actually didn't like me and didn't want to do anything with me outside of work. It took that many months of knowing some of them, and talking to them about our lives, before I was finally able to go out with them - and thinking on it, each of the plans was initiated by them and not by me. And I had thoughts of "what if I got on their nerves, what if they only invited me out of pity or boredom, what if I did something to upset them and then they never want to do anything with me again."

With two of those people things right now feel ok with me. But the others? I feel awkward and nervous around them now that we're back at work over the summer. I recognize it's ridiculous of me... but the worry is still there.

I'm sorry that you're going through this though