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Originally Posted by IndestructibleGirl
So, the therapist sent a message back. Said she'd been extremely busy last few days, but she'd get reading my email this afternoon. This is fine but am I being unreasonable thinking if she keeps saying 'I'm here' and 'call me whenever you want' then it gets a bit academic if they aren't actually really there. Like if she said we could definitely talk about things yesterday, and then doesn't even check the stuff I sent her until today...then it jars with me some. I guess maybe I've misunderstood her.
It is ratting me off a little, but I'm fairly sure I am being unreasonable, so I just messaged back and said fine, but I'm concerned about how not hearing from her yesterday affected me - that that feels like a backward step. So I dunno. Maybe she's not in fact the right person for me to deal with my stuff with. Or maybe that's just me sabotaging my therapy, freaking out as I admit to myself that I'm attaching to her? I just don't know! 
Thank you guys for holding my hand this morning  |
You're not being unreasonable. She has a responsibility to be there the way she had told you she would. As you enter an intense phase of your therapy where youre having lots of anxiety or other difficult feelings, you have a right to know how much support you can expect from T between sessions. It helps you decide what you want to disclose and when.
The feeling of neediness, especially in relation to reliving painful memories, is very hard to bear. Your T (and everyone else's!) should know that. It can feel very difficult to ask for support between sessions. You feel vulnerable and maybe a little foolish when you get anxious and frightened because T hasn't given the support she promised. She should never set you up for that.
Definitely material for next session...