Share here your staying alive plan. Tell your BF, and let him support you as best you can. Find your local sui prev # and give them a call, for practice.

Identify your strongest ancestors, role models, etc. and imagine them supporting you and loving you. Ask them internally to stand strong with you because you have some work to do ... such as ...

Focus on one of the voices, triggers, whatever it is that trying to dominate you and tell in to Back Off. It won't be fast or easy, but every second you stay in this challenge you grow stronger, IT grows weaker.

Take a breather, lite an incense, and declare I won't deal with you while this incense is burning down.

Find an anthem song and declare it's your theme music, and then play it repeatedly to keep you strong and diligent.

We love you.