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Sep 22, 2013, 11:38 AM
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Member Since: Dec 2012
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Hi Psyche Central,
Please help me.. Sorry this is a tad long. Please help. I feel like crying right now. Why? I don't know.
Last night I tossed and turned paired with vivid dreams all night. I awoke with my body feeling sore, almost over exerted like I ran or endured a lot of physical activity.
A part of me feels extremely embarrassed by the dream/ dreams I had last night.  I feel like I had a set back with my dreams. For some time my dreams have been calming, intuitive, informative... Until last night. I feel shame right now, I guess that is why I am skirting around telling the dream. However I need help, insight about this.
The Dream: I was out in a business complex of some sort. A business high rise of sorts. Apparently my T office was located there. I was there to ask him for an appointment. When I went into his office a young man was there with him as I talked with him. He explained to me that the young man sitting there was more important to him and that I have to understand his profession is about the money. And money talks. I asked did my insurance pay him less? He said yes, and that he make more off of this other person hence they came first.
At some time the young man left out of the office. I shifted, and moved in my seat. I felt overwhelmingly sad. I didn't say it. I could hear it in my mind. "It's over. You are done seeing me". when I thought this, the more I thought this, the more our physical bodies gravitated towards each other. I could feel tears rolling down my face. It felt definitive, it was over. I would never see him again, ever. I thought the "end" of me ever seeing him as going to be a hug. As he embraced me in a hug and told me he was sorry, but it had to end. He pulled back and looked at me. Stared at me. Then he said, you may as well know now, I am absolutely crazy about you, I think about you all the time, you have no idea how madly in love with you I am." (Ridiculous smdh  so irrational and stupid to even subconsciously think or see some mess like this) Anyway. we ended up somehow falling onto one of his leather chairs and we began kissing. (in my head I was thinking how worthless and far from his level I am and this surely is nothing more than physical attraction and there is no way in Hades what he said is true) In my shame I pushed him off of me and said you know what you said and are doing are not true. It is not sincere. You do not, will not feel that way about me. I began to sob and yell at him that he has always saw me as nothing, no one with no value. Just some screwed up client that doesn't pay as much as some other clients. I stormed out the office, he grabbed my arm and said Sammy (alias for his Secretary) knows how I feel about you. I can see it in her eyes when she see me look at you or whenever you are near me. You know, deep down inside that this is not a game I am trying to tell you. He then said even if you never see me again, I will always be with you. You are my twin flame... Then I awoke
I now feel confused, embarrassed, sad... I sincerely feel like I will never see him again that he is terminating care. Why? I don't know. I just feel like it's over.
Please help. Please help me with this dream. I beg of you, someone, anyone please help me make sense of this.
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